Sunday, March 31, 2013
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Insecure & not perfect
I was looking back at throwback thurs pictures. Laughing at the high school me, all worried about how I looked, what I was wearing had the right labels, or the right look.
Am I now 43 and finally able to admit, I don't have it all together! Yes, I like to look the best that I can look. Labels are not my focus now days. i find myself consumed by how good a mom, housecleaner, cook, etc... I am. But to be honest yes, somedays I am super mom! The laundry is all done, the living room is picked up, dusted & vacuumed. Even fresh flowers in a vase on the dining room table. Booyah!!
However, lets be real. Authentically real! Somedays I have the laundry done, but it's all folded & stacked just waiting for the energizer bunny to come by and put it up. Somedays (one ever 6 weeks) there is a thing called "early release" days. Yes, I did forget it about it & I had to walk 20 minutes late the "walk of shame" into the school to get my daughter. (Insert deep sigh here!). I also got frustrated at the dr office receptionist for wanting to book me an appt before they could tell me what type of dr I should see Even though I have an PPO & don't need a referral. (Yes, I apologized for demanding my own way)
Why, is it important to admit defeat and imperfectness & even failure. It reminds us that we need God, and that non of us are perfect. Also that we can acknowledge that we too sometimes have the same struggles and can connect with each other. Anyone else out there not perfect? Just working on making improvements & growing closer to God daily? I think keep my focus on Him helps me feel complete & accepted.
Am I now 43 and finally able to admit, I don't have it all together! Yes, I like to look the best that I can look. Labels are not my focus now days. i find myself consumed by how good a mom, housecleaner, cook, etc... I am. But to be honest yes, somedays I am super mom! The laundry is all done, the living room is picked up, dusted & vacuumed. Even fresh flowers in a vase on the dining room table. Booyah!!
However, lets be real. Authentically real! Somedays I have the laundry done, but it's all folded & stacked just waiting for the energizer bunny to come by and put it up. Somedays (one ever 6 weeks) there is a thing called "early release" days. Yes, I did forget it about it & I had to walk 20 minutes late the "walk of shame" into the school to get my daughter. (Insert deep sigh here!). I also got frustrated at the dr office receptionist for wanting to book me an appt before they could tell me what type of dr I should see Even though I have an PPO & don't need a referral. (Yes, I apologized for demanding my own way)
Why, is it important to admit defeat and imperfectness & even failure. It reminds us that we need God, and that non of us are perfect. Also that we can acknowledge that we too sometimes have the same struggles and can connect with each other. Anyone else out there not perfect? Just working on making improvements & growing closer to God daily? I think keep my focus on Him helps me feel complete & accepted.
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