Tomorrow is my youngest daughters birthday. I remember it like it was yesterday! All through out my pregnancy every where I went people would ask me if I was hoping for a boy, (as they looked at my 2 older daughters - I always thought that was so rude!) and my reply was always the same "nope, just praying for a redhead" - you see I am a redhead and not one of my daughters had looked anything like me. I wanted a red head. Well you can imagine my obnoxious behavior, oh I mean my delight when Grace came out with her head covered in beautiful, glistening red hair!! It looked like eyelashes it was so thin, and the only way to know for sure it was red was to take her into the sunlight (yep, that baby was in the sun once a day!)
Well tomorrow is her birthday, and I was running behind in getting out her invitations to her party (I know BAD MOM trust me I am full of guilt) but we were trying to decide what to do - her birthday is falling this year right in between Mother's Day weekend, and the weekend we leave for vacation. So we planned this cute little luau, with cute games that included musical beach blankets, a beach relay race - and you know what I am going to say. Only 1 little girl is coming to her birthday. I learned that there is another party on Saturday for another little girl in her class (her mom was a good mom and got invites out early - and no, my little Grace was not invited) I am so blue, I want to cry. As a mom when our baby hurts, it makes us hurt. No one is perfect, life is not perfect and learning to live in the real world is an important lesson but I think it stinks to learn it at 7!!!!! Thank goodness that we have sisters!! So we will fill up the house a little bit, but even Grace said she was going to have the littlest party ever. (you now see why I am crying! and blubbering like an imbecile!!) I just do not know how to fix this - and I feel so frustrated, guilty, angry, upset, (I think that may cover the gamit of emotions that I am feeling right now)
Well I am done pouring out my heart, I do feel a little bit better to confess to everyone in Blog land that I am a crumby mom. Hope everyone has a good weekend - I will try to have a more uplifting attitude in my next post. Thanks for listening to me whine!!! Does anyone have any advice or a story to share that might make me feel better? please do not scold me I really could not handle anymore guilt at this point!